Turning point

This short report comes from the website CLogo, which has since disappeared.

Taken from the collection Positive Memories, compiled by T. Rivas.

Quoted by O’Carroll, 1980, S. 83-84 auf: http://www.ipce.info/host/radicase/

As a boy he became sexually mature at age twelve-and-a-half.

“It was like the world was beginning to make sense, to take on purpose and meaning. (…) I regard my meeting with Mr. S., then aged twenty-six, as a critical turning point in my love life. Until then, sex was fun, felt good and left me only moderately guilty.

Once I approached Mr.S. (Yes, I approached him) with my thirteen-year-old impatience for intimacy, he told no one, responded positively to my shaky advances (didn’t even laugh at me!) and simply embraced me. (…)

Here was a masculine adult man (happily married even), who was interested in doing with me what I was already finding exciting with my boy-friends. And through this relationship a new dimension was added to my experience which has not occurred to me before - tenderness, affection and love. (…)

This affection was, in its way, just as satisfying as the ecstatic orgasms that punctuated our days and nights together. I regard this man, this relationship as a turning point because I was never the same after knowing him for two years - I was more in tune with myself after that …”